Glass bottles tipped upward
Trying to be warmed
By the hot summer sun
Before being trashed
With their friends.
As we get trashed with our friends
The light gets brighter
As we slip more into darkness
In the art of repetition
I draw my arms up
Wrap them around you
Tell me you love me
I whisper
To the nobody
That’ll take me home tonight.
Make me into the night.
I wish I could forget tonight
But I’m never too far gone
To remember
Faces and names and numbers
Of how many times
I’ve been laid
Down
By someone
Who couldn’t care less
That I was so careless.
A drunken damsel in distress.
Stumbalina.
A passed out
Passed up
Fucked up
Fucked out
Dressed up
To dress down
But there’s no dressing up
The bitter fact:
Whore.
And as I lay here
On the stone cold
Cold stone floor
As I linger from dawn to dusk
And float in between sober and drunk
I find myself contemplating
Life and death.
So I reach for the bottle
But grabbed the gun instead.
And instead of turning up
I loaded the lead
In an act of desperation
I put the gun to my head.
Pain from my past
Rolled down my cheeks
My stomach was turning summersaults
My knees went weak.
And the trigger under my finger
Felt miles away.
And it felt like forever
Before I decided
To pull it anyway.
this has touched me in so many ways… incredible
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Reblogged this on christymarieuncut and commented:
this wonderful poem touched my heart and soul… i had to reblog so i could read it from time to time… this writer has a talent and hopefully continues to write such amazing pieces!!
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Thank you so much for the reblog! I’m so glad my writing could speak to you. Feel free to share on any other social media as well. As I hope it can help others.
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I don抰 even know how I ended up here, but I thought this post was good. I don’t know who you are but certainly you’re going to a famous blogger if you aren’t already 😉 Cheers!
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